Can't Sleep

About an hour ago I made the fatal mistake of accidentally drinking tea which was caffeinated. I haven't had caffeine in my body since my senior year in high-school. OK that wasn't that long ago, only about two years. But I am now wide awake and it's already 2:00 a.m. I wish I were soundly asleep in my nice comfortable bed. However, because I'm not I decided a post would be in order. Right now I'm listening to my new favorite song, "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane...gosh for some weird reason I'm totally INFATUATED with this song. Seriously though, it's not just the caffeine coursing through my viens that is making me feel this way. It's so strange. I mean without exception the chorus of this song never fails to make me get goosebumps. It must be the music because quite frankly the lyrics aren't spectacular. I'll probably get sick of it soon because of that. I mean songs without any depth can only last so long.

On another note, Nadal lost to Gonzalez in the australian open a few days ago, but on a more positive side, this is the furthest he's ever gotten in this open so that's something. But not much. I'm thinking Nadal needs to get a coach who is not his uncle. I really believe that this is the edge he needs to finally win more hard court tournaments.

In a more domestic turn, my family just bought a new german shepherd. You would think with a german shepherd, a lab, and a Dalmatian that my family would have enough dogs, but we decided to get another german shepherd nonetheless. Unfortunately she's already three years old - I prefer getting a dog as a puppy but I had very little say in the matter - and her name is Ultra... Yeah, it's weird... and we were going to change it but it begins to grow on you as all names invariably do so I think we're going to keep it. Ok this post is too long now... and I think I should at least try to go to sleep. Argh... caffeine is seriously from satan and I'm never ingesting that substance into my body again.

My Life, Dwindling Away Due to Poor DSL Connections

Currently my Internet connection is so incredibly slow that just within the last couple of minutes I have several times felt the unhealthy urge to pick up my computer, throw it (violently) onto the hard floor and thus, in an animal/male sort of way, annihilate the problem. But that would be merely punishing my computer for something which is not its fault. I should therefore go to my dsl distributor and take it out on him only I will not ever in a million years do something like that because socially and probably morally that would be unacceptable. Therefore I will do nothing but sit here and brood over my sad misfortune.

Moving on, my two brothers, Joseph and David are currently in southern California enjoying an amazing cold streak. I am super jealous and I wish I could experience this odd weather phenomenon myself. Tonight I will most probably play some soccer...yay...Right now I should probably get back to my school work...but the Internet connection is so slow I'm dreading the very thought of trying to access my assignments. as winnie the pooh would say, "oh bother!"

Christmas is officially over...

Most of the people who came to visit for christmas are now gone...I didn't really hang out with any of them more than once which for me is a good thing. It's so weird living in the philippines. it reminds me of the train station in the matrix or the wood between the worlds in C.S. Lewis' Magician's nephew. This place is like a tie or a bridge between all the countries faithers are now living in and every once in a while they will stop by on their way through. So in a way i'm lucky because i've been able to see a good amount of my classmates again just by staying here but it's also hard because invariably I have to say goodbye to them as well and that's always hard.

Solution: only hang out with them once or twice because they're going to be leaving soon so there really is no point in any of it.

Manifestation of Solution: Most friendships which were good ones become lukewarm and eventually fade into memories.

Light at the End of the Tunnel:

“Let not your heart be troubled,” His tender word I hear, And resting on His goodness, I lose my doubts and fears; Though by the path He leadeth, but one step I may see;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.

I'm officially a student at Moody Bible Institute -- Online... :D Kind of weird that all my classes now are focused on some aspect of the Bible, rather than on humans coming from apes or bogus theories from Freud etc... Going to a secular college also had it's advantages though. It did continually force me to examine what I truly believed. Whereas I know that by going to a christian college my guard will be down, which inevitably results in my accepting everything which is taught to me, trusting the professors to have it right rather than weighing what is said against the scriptures. I also tend to slack off on my time with God using the rationalization that since I'm continually using my bible for classes it counts just as much as spending time with God, when the two are equally important yet profoundly different.

Anyway, Christmas vacation is over and school has started...another chapter in my life is over while a new one has begun.